Saturday 17 August 2013

Finding yourself

God shed clarity to my vision again, and saved me from pain. How do You always remind me to watch my step before I fall?

Believing that you can do it is an ecstatic feeling, it's a sleepy joy that comes at you. 

To have grown much more resilient, facing things don't seem quite that difficult now as it would have been. To realize your gifts from God, one by one, through the people around you. My writings and works, my explanations when teaching, my choice of words when consoling, and me being me. To realize that you're loved by friends and family. To realize that you're loved. 

But most importantly, I'm finding myself.

And these all happen at God's right timing.

The forum's over, but what took its place was a farrago of emotions. Exhaustion plagued me to the deepest depths. Thoughts resumed from where they were cast aside, and were further woven into a messy knit that only served to smother me with discomfort. I'm grateful that the state of confusion didn't last as long as I thought it would. Thank You for answering my prayers.

Honesty and patience is forever a great virtue. I sincerely hope this won't turn out to be a deja vu and ends in a nightmare like how it did. But the most important thing is to leave it all to God. With patience.

Feelings' a funny thing.

Time to concentrate and get all powered up for the battle. And I believe that I can do this. God's here!