Thursday 30 August 2012

When nothing seems right

When nothing seems right, negative thoughts of all sorts hit us. Wanting to give up when there's seemingly no light at the end of the tunnel. When there are no junctions of change to turn at.

When nothing seems right.

Nothing seems right?

Rarely if not never anyone says that all seems to be wrong rather than nothing seems to be right. We are so sure of nothing seeming to be right yet unable to confirm if all is wrong. Contradictory.

Pessimism, one of the many pawns the devil has, strikes at every chance with the desire to override our minds.

No one cares. No one loves me. I'm worthless. Familiar, aren't they.. Those are the untruths, truths till a certain extent, for in actual fact quite a few words were erased. No one whom I expect to care cares. No one that I know of loves me. I'm worthless for that's most probably why no one loves me and no one cares.

Blinded we are by pessimism. Robbed we are of joy and freedom.

When and only when we open our eyes are we able to notice the little blessings we have -- the people who care, the ones who love us, all of them. On a bad hectic day when I was in need of some cheering-ups, facing the possibility of missing my lunch and thus not being able to take some painkillers for my leg, some chocolates from See Jia and a lunchbox from Zi Wei, albeit diminutive, these little acts of care and love shook me awake from my daydream.

The impeccable absence of care and love never exists in the whole of mankind, for He loves each and every one of us unconditionally. And knowing that is enough. More than enough.

So open your eyes and you will see.

Tuesday 28 August 2012

Questioning existence and staying firm

Every existence and every happening each serves a purpose in our lives. For various reasons do things happen but it all boils down to the very conclusion that is beyond question -- they serve to mold us into better people through the experience we gain.

But why do we exist?

Bludgeoned by the happenings in one's life, he is left pondering upon the reason behind his existence. Sounds familiar, doesn't it?

It's vicious indeed that our train of thoughts may potentially fall off a bridge if we aren't aware of where it is taking us to. One may end up spiraling into doom and having earned a one-way ticket to a hell-like abyssal realm.

Self-realization is what this is all about.

But then again, what sort of self-realization is crucial here? What is it that we must bear in mind at all times? Why do we have to remind ourselves?

Affliction, more often than not, distorts our sight or even blinds us, robbing us of our ability to distinguish between the right and wrong. Then we're no different from unarmed soldiers in a raging battlefield, helpless and defenseless, ever so prone to succumbing to the Devil's temptations and unwittingly complying with his commands. That's when we have solemnly chanced upon trouble. How helpless we are then of having no control over our own heart, mind and soul?

Jesus said, "Seek first the kingdom of God, and all these things will be added unto you." To keep one's eyes focused on Him, and everything will fall in place in life. It's when we stray from Him that we suffer. It is to have faith and follow Him that this lesson is about. This time around I have kept -- and will always keep -- in mind the job He has given me. Because I yearn to serve Him and His people, I shall continue this journey.

Note to self : Isaiah 41:10